Pencil's Edge

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Thoughts

Hiding in empty words not spoken

In weightless wonder I dream

Night gives way

To walking memories

Wearing away in morning haze

No answer as I stare on canvas

Remember Patience

Friday, March 6, 2015

Life is not what you expect it to be nor should it be. That is something I've learned again this week. We make plans to give ourselves guidance, a place for our feet to plant. We can only see as far as our human eyes allow. The path we choose can change within moments from sadness to joy, happiness to sorrow, darkness to light.

For now the ground I walk is hard, broken and at moments unbearable. I have to believe it will get better. In my mind I know that to be true but my heart weighs a ton. Pushing me down through the earth.

It has been a bad week.

new painting Acrylic on canvas

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Floundering

Ever feel like you are not quite there?

It's dumb to compare myself to some of the masters but I do. There is such a chasm between where I am and where they are. I feel I have the tools and mental facility to get closer. But for some reason putting the pieces together is like holding sand with sticks.

For the past couple of months I focused a lot on drawing. Because I really wanted to trust the connection between mind and hand. I feel that it's getting better. It has come quite clear that this is a lifelong endeavor. You are thinking "duh" and you are right. Don't know why I was thinking I could be competent in a couple of months.

One of the slow realizations is that I need a process of working. So many different ways of doing things. I need to hone a way of working that fits me.

It's hard to remember to take a step back and realize part of the fun is in the struggle.
Ok done venting. Thanks for listening :)